My first rejection
I should have expected it. I received my first rejection notice in the mail today. Two sentences telling me that my book was not a good fit with their business model and wish me the best placing it with another agency. Like a girlfriend telling me to look for happiness in someone else because she couldn’t see us together. My heart skip a beat and I felt defeat for a moment. The feeling brought me back to the time when my first love break my heart, it was a bunny love, when the world was spring, and life was written by wonderful song in the back drop of grade school. I made a living by receiving rejections all day long and I’m expecting this letter to come, but holding it in my hand I couldn’t manage to get rid of the thought that plagues my mind. The thought that my work maybe wasn’t up to par to all the stupid books out there that made the best seller list.
I hold on to that letter and bath in the human suffering of rejection for about a minute and move on to editing my book. In my mind I justified like the first time my heart was broken: maybe the she is right, there will be someone out there for me and that person will enjoy the work that I created because beauty is in the eyes of the beholder. I frame the rejections letter in my office like the picture of my first love to remind myself that someone out there will appreciate my work and will bring me happiness. All I have to do is wait.
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