Dear Luly,
When I heard you past the interview and received your Visa, I want to congratulate you and enjoy the moment with you. But I can’t. I’m apprehend whether to cheer for you or sadden by the fact that you’ll soon leave your home; leaving everything familiars to you and immigrated to a foreign country. I know you’re very young and in your head the grass is greener on the other side. I too, at one point, in your shoes. I can related to the excitements that run through you now. It’s been many years that I had left our beloved country to find a better life and everyday I can’t help but missed it, dearly. When the excitements subsided and difficulties of life kick in you will understand what I means. When you eat instant noodles and tears of missing your parent, friends, and siblings trailed down your cheek, you’ll realized then what you had given up. I hope the same reason that propel you to this stage will carry you through to whatever life thrust upon you.
I wrote this letter to you because I can’t bear the thought that you’ll go through the life that I had. Luly, the journey I traveled through was very dark and lonely. In the new world, I had no one; there are many things that are still so foreign to me, at times, I felt I drowned in them; adjusting to the difference in cultures shocked me, it’s clearly separated me from the native: I felt out-of-place. The small group of people who I could cultivate to make friends are too busy with their life I felt there are no personal connections to them at all, it’s meaningless. Many nights after a busy day at work, I find yourself eating dinner in the company of a TV; few months like that, I felt, I was alone on this earth. I missed the flame tree in the school yard and our classmates. I missed the time when Thao, the neighborhood girl, and I play tag, and especially I missed Lamvi, my sister, and her cantankerous personalities.
Then as time fly by, when I realized the grass is not any greener anywhere, and decided to come back to find the life I had – it had left me. I am sorry Luly, I want to paint a cheery picture for you. I want to tell you that you will be successful and you will accomplished all that you had set out to do, but I can’t. Because a person that abandoned their home to find another – will always end in tragedy.
All I can do is wishing you the best and strong.
Forever Yours
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